Awakening

July 7, 2011

The person I am is so far from the woman I want to be.
My heart longs for someone deeper.
I know I'll never reach the finish line until the day you call me home.
What an amazing day!

I'm stuck in a place where I'm so overwhelmed by my present and future responsibility.
The lives that will be changed as a result of my faith. 
How the prayers I pray have so much weight.
You call me a leader.
You say I am set apart.

My heart hurts for them.
A wound I don't think can ever heal.
Though it fades as I decide to step off the path set before me.
To say I don't know your voice would be a lie.
I've heard you call my name so clearly.

I never remember the feeling of being lost.
You've always had my heart.
But not like this.
I run towards you with every ounce of strength in my fragile body.
Not a worthy sacrifice but a beautiful offering.

I just wish that they understood.
The beauty at can rise from the ashes.
That you can restore and bring us so close that we never felt broken.

I hope I live my life worthy of the call I've received.
That one day there will be change in just one single heart.
That is enough.

I love you.
Most.